- Robin is computer savvy.
- Robin a good mother.
- Robin is good at sewing, dating back to childhood.
- Robin has millions of ideas that flow like Niagara Falls, and energy to see them through.
|October 1, 2011: emptyness|
Let's start with #4-Niagara Falls so I can confess the truth. My last blog post was at least a week ago. I looked inside my little brain for ideas and, people, I found nothing!
It is easy to explain the empty brain I am experiencing - Laura came home. Getting to know the 2011 version of her seems to be crowding out my obsession with sewing.
She is great, and we have a great relationship, but I can't say it's because I am #2-A Good Mother. I made all the mistakes people moan about "parents these days". From 1990-2004, I was a divorcee raising a child while ambitiously pursuing a career. I confess, I wanted her to like me and, I set very few boundaries. I confess, I treated her more like a friend than a child. Yep, I confess that we were more like Thelma and Louise than parent & child. It was OK with me that she went to the other side of the world after college and it was fine that she hasn't been home for Christmas or Thanksgiving or her birthday for most of the last 5 years. After all, adventure is awesome. I was all for it. Other parents seemed to feel sorry for me, that I must miss her terribly, but I saw it as a chance to visit Europe and Asia with the her to be my tour guide. We had Skype and we never grew apart.
This geographical distance between myself and Laura brings me to #1-Computer savvy. I confess I set up my blog by accident. Laura was in Germany in 2008 and she created a blog to share her adventures. The first time I commented on her blog, I followed the prompts to create my own account. Oops - look at that - I had just set up a blog. I quickly realized that I could post my own photos and narratives of life at home without my
little accomplice daughter. It may have looked like a sewing blog, but that was just a cover-up for my desperate desire to post about life at home for a certain family member to read. I won't bore you with how she banned me from commenting on her blog at one point (apparently it is not cool for mom use that avenue to proclaim pride in daughter's every little activity) or how shocked I was the first time someone commented on my blog about my sewing. That was, um, a little weird.
This brings me around to how and why I got so focused on sewing, #3 Good at Sewing. I really wasn't that good at sewing. I had sewn since childhood, and enjoyed it a great deal, but sewing certainly wasn't so central to my life back then. Oh yeah I thought I was pretty good, but once I saw the work of others in the online sewing community, I had some catching up to do. I practiced A LOT and the rest is chronicled in the 419 posts prior to this one.
In conclusion, I hope this doesn't shock you too much.
Just kidding, you probably already knew my dark secrets.
I have every confidence that ideas will return and sewing will continue, but posting may be light for a while. She has found a job and new digs are soon to follow. But for the first time in many years, Thelma can spend the holidays with Louise and a new normal is unfolding for our family.
Thank you for reading and thank you for following. You all have become an important part of my life. You helped me through a challenging time. Final confession: it was a wee little bit hard to live on opposite sides of the globe from my child for 4 out of the last 5 years.
But, I think everything is going to be [more than] OK.
Happy Sewing, cyber friends!